For Ladida

Damn feelings 
I hate to exist
My eyes won't obey me
Whether I tell them to close or explode
So are they really mine?
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You will never arrive
That's the best lie
Because there's nothing truer than the ever-existent 'I'
And nothing harder to believe
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Swallow, gulp it down
Just put it in your mouth
Taste is the realest sense
Your tongue can only lie to others
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Make-up and skirts
[it hurts! it hurts!]
No one asked you anyway
Nothing is less about you
Than your shell
That's why we have to invent tools
Mirrors
To see ourselves,
Our favorite porn-
Our eyes most forbidden fruit,
Our faces.
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I hate you, I hate you, I hate you
You put me in mud up to my neck
And kiss my face
Wipe yourself all over me
You'll fill my mouth with it
But won't just drown me
You'll let me drown
But not asphyxiate 
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Upup, up down
Up and down the stairs again
[You can't claim de ja vu
If you're somewhere where you've been]
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