For Ladida

Ah, it's an aphid empire
And we're ruled by ladybugs 
that like to bite you 
Bite off your head

Do you like it when the lady bites your head?
Yeah? She'll put you to bed all right
But I promise it won't take all night
You are nourishment and are tastiest dead

The only protection that you can have
Is enslavement
And industrial ants would love to eat off you
Did you understand what I meant?
'Work-boy' alludes
Work, boy-
You will make food or you will be food.
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Flesh, flash
Who do you work for?
Or don't you work at all?
Lash out, eyelash
Born and bored
Fresh fall.

Flesh, flesh,
Who's are you?
Mine?
So unkind
Untrue
Smashed
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Everything is ruined forever
I want soft blankets 
For my bed of nails
So touch me softly,
Give me blanket statements
And don't press so hard,
I'm sinking in anyway.

I wish you understood
The way I wanted you to
What if it's not really you?
I could have been wrong
Or I might have been lying.
What is the difference, anyway?

I wish you're love
Felt like longing to learn
And not memorization of phrases.
I know you're a good learner,
And that I'm the bad teacher
But I wish I hadn't changed you.
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Don't touch me! I'm dirty!
Don't you know where I've been?
Help me
I'm doing it again…
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I bite 
I'm mean
Much more than curls
Unfit
Unclean
Don't give me your pearls
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I'm glad you escaped
But could you visit?
It's exhausting, being raped
And I think you'd make it
Stop, if you ever came about.
It's awful, what your body does
To me when you're out.
It's nothing like it was
[Before you learned to escape.]
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Why can't you hear the lie on my voice?
Or is it a choice
That you're making,
Trusting me?
We'd be
Better off breaking.
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Dead goldfish.
You're body shimmers like it always did,
But there's something in your eye.
I am sick
I am sorry
Please, please
Anything
How may I help you?